I think I'm Done With Smoking

Well, it's almost a month and I continue to be smoke free. If I didn't run back to the store for a pack of smokes this past week, I'm pretty sure I never will. To say it was a bad week would be putting it mildly although I am sure that by most standards my week was OK.

I found out today that we were not approved for the home loan we had applied for. This piece of news, by itself, is not such a big deal. Typically you would look elsewhere. The problem is that our current apartment has been rented already which basically meant that, as of February 28th, my pregnant wife and I are homeless unless we can find an apartment this coming week. Still, I am stating positive. We looked at a place today and filled out the paperwork, we'll know on Monday when we can move in. Hopefully it will be next weekend.

Other than that, things are good. Our baby is growing well and mommy feels good. We started looking at the items that will go on the registry and colors for the nursery. These are the things that keep me off the cigarettes. Thinking of my baby and the things that I need to do to make sure he comes into a good home. We're working hard at getting everything set up.

When I think about all these things, I'm pretty sure I'm done with smoking.

Will They Ever Stop?

Well, here I am, 2 weeks later. I haven't smoked a single cigarette in all that time. I'm not sure how long the cravings will last, but it seems they are hanging around for a while. I've noticed that it depends a lot on what's going on during the day. I hardly have cravings on the weekends, but during work, it gets really hard.

At times, things slow down and boredom sets in, other times, something happens that boils my blood and a HUGE craving comes along with it. I guess I should stop coming to work since I am supposed to avoid situations that make me want to smoke...LOL!

Maybe I can convince my boss that this is a health issue and I need some LOA or something. At least I can say that I'm proud of myself. I really never thought I'd make it this long without falling off at least once. Maybe after I've been smoke free for a while I'll stop thinking about it every time I see someone smoking in traffic or when I go out. It's not so much the smell that gets me, it's the idea since I always enjoyed it so much.

Funny, I was talking with Jack, an old guy that works at the same place I do and he told me he quit after 53 years of smoking 3 packs a day and doesn't even think about it any more. Maybe one day I'll be as lucky as Jack.

Still going strong!

Yep! I'm still here and still smoke free after almost 2 weeks. I feel calmer now. It's funny that I have been this relaxed considering how I would react to anything the first few days. Today has been great. I'm trying the new flavor of lozenges and it tastes OK. I guess I'm getting used to the taste. I'm trying to wean myself off these things though and have started alternating with Jolly Ranchers (apple is the best!!).

As for the cravings, they are not as frequent, but when they come....damn! They're stronger for some reason and absolutely random. The first few days I expected to get cravings while driving and after eating since I ALWAYS smoked during or after these. Just the other day I was talking to my wife and had a reaaallly strong craving mid sentence, it was the weirdest thing. But, I mentioned it to her and she helped me get my mind off of it by keeping the conversation going.

Two more days to my second smoke free week. That's half a month...almost there. One day at a time.